God has allowed me to be ultimately tired of doing things for him, to break down and stop looking at the world with my own eyes for a moment, so I could look inward and realize just how much of a broken person I am as the world where I live and which I minster to.
I have therefore come to realize that in order for me to truly and sincerely be compassionate about the brokenness of the world, it is vital that I do not only look outward to the world, but look inside of me at the same time...
And there I have found that my own wounds and brokenness are worth ministering to.. that they are a part of the issues of the world.. that as I minister, I must be ministered to. As I become an instrument of healing, I myself must cling to the source of healing - to the God who has not only called me into service for my strength, but more so for my weakness.
When I am weak, His power becomes stronger in me.
-JCR (May 18, 2009)